Another tangent about socialising
I do not understand the reason why people would not be themselves, it confuses me that there are people who feel the need to be performative in most of their day.
It is however obvious to me that the reason is that they fear being judged.
The only reason I can see that being a real threat is if your surrounded by people who would judge you for being human.
And now that I word it like that. I too fear being judged for being human by some people - Particularly the people that I want to be around more.
I can't truly explain why I feel this way, especially when I consciously know people want human, not a fictional character or a nitpicked social media influencer.
However, any feeling of embarrassment fails to ever make me try and not be human. That conscious analyses of how people perceive me - or more realistically how I perceive myself - only makes me ensure I am being myself.
I do not want this person to grow comfortable with a fictional character, I want them to grow comfortable with me.
I often feel like I focus on the same thing too much. In this example - including all my writing on my thoughts about phycology - I feel I focus mainly on the delta(changing) of relationships.
I would just like to rebut this for the sake of my sanity.
I believe that is more of a topic for me because its something I don't understand, I cannot consistently make or grow a relationship.
Also, when I am conversing with my close friends. My mind is distracted by the conversation. I get lost in it and that makes overthinking difficult because all my thinking is going towards one thing.