Thoughts Of A Guy Named Mason

Brain dump 5/03

How does one write a book? it is an interesting thing to aspire to because it is by assumption an art, and art from most pathway and career based perspectives is not profitable at the individual scale. Then again I suppose why does anyone aspire to anything? I would assume that we all have some internal drive to achieve things? Is it more than just the dopamine of completing a task?

A proffesional essay would answer the questions posed in the first paragraph and then move onto the next point. I am not a proffesional, a proffesional knows what they are doing rather and spewing words into a computer and hoping for the best. So what does me not being proffesional have to do with me not following standards for writing? nothing, absolutely nothing but i do consider myself to generally not be one to follow standards for art. If we all availed to that then every drawing of a stick figure would have the same imperfections rather than unique details that make it the stick figure of its creator. Also, maybe I don't need to be proffesional to make and do things, I will make things either way.

Recently I feel I have had a focus on how can I make money from the things I create? I don't believe this has come out in how I present things except maybe reading over some of my blog posts before I post them rather than just clicking publish, that doesnt mean I edit it though. However the monetary side of things has been on my mind lately. High school pushes the concept of a concrete career and pathway very early on, and they do say you can just keep all the doors open but why are we specialising if we don't know what we want to do? And why are the people that are really passionate about certain fields not allowed to spend time at school researching their interests? I guess no one is allowed interests until they are old enought to choose electives and I guess they aren't allowed interests once they have a full time job either. It is a very apealing proposition to look at a world where I can do what I love and write and draw and take photos and not have to sell my labour to a bussiness. I recently read a blog post that talked about how not to monetise your art. The sentiment seems to be shared across every artist from my knowledge - Don't monetise it if you are doing it for money. Monetise it if you would still do it for the next few years if you made no money from it.

I have been incredibly sick the past week. I think it is the flu. It absolutely fucking sucks being stuck at home with a nose dripping 24 hours a day and a headache and the inability to dance to some upbeat music for more than a minute without getting a sore chest. I am a very different person now to what I was during the covid lockdowns. I loved being inside then, playing video games, watching youtube, finishing all my school work before lunch and stuffing around all afternoon. Time flies when you are a child with no concept of time when it is observably limitless. Today, if I wasn't feeling like shit, would have been a perfect day to go for a bike ride and do some photography - actually the entire week has had perfect weather for around here, mid-low 20s C and sunny. Such a shame I can't get out. And even If I am magically perfectly fine tomorow. Its going to be 30 C, and this weekend is a long weekend so its another 4 days until I can go to school. I may have been ahead in some classes last week but missing a week and a half might definetly change that.

I could very well do some of that work at home, but that work I actually have to do is:

A lot of reports... not my type of writing.