I am not a proffesional
i hear so often in most feilds that to be good at something you need to specialise. The example sticking in my head is from a youtube video about pottery where the guy said that you make good pottery you need to specialise into your own style.
The thing that makes me feel anxious about this is Im not even specialised across the board into a feild. I would say I have about an equal knowledge in urban design as i do electrical engineering as i do theoretical mathematics, and then arts and making things. And then a step below that linguistics, psychology, philosophy. Just I am interested in every thing. And then to hear people say that to be good you need to specialise 2 layers below what I am currently?
But then I compare myself to my peers at school and that I know and I don't know how different they are? Online friends arent really the same because I dont imagine people from the other side of the world emailing me about how they tried sculpting for the first time today.
At school specifically... I am not comparitively the person who does too much and isnt good in any of them, because I am the only person doing most of the things I do. And for the things Im not alone in, well I must just be good at what I do then?
I am not a mathmeticiation but then I talk to my math teacher and i end up being challenge to time manage the entire semester long unit into a single term? because they have other things for me to work on afterward. First day of school for the year they already have plans for what I will be doing when i finish early.
I am not a professional artist but 18 months ago i was still given a 2m tall canvas the art teacher bought for 150 dollars a few years ago and had sitting in the storage room for all that time. Im still looked at as one of the art kids in the year level.
I'm not a professional engineer but Im still making an mp3 player as a personal project.
Im not a professional at anything yet I still do things. Which I will argue makes me professional relative to everyone else my age.