self consciousness
A thing i have noticed in a lot of people - including myself - is that we all seem to want to be the centre of attention. Whether it be concious or just a thing we coincidentally do.
There have been serveral times where I manage to somehow make something about me when im not trying - "What if its my fault?". And yes, in practise it is more than likely that you were a factor - but just as much as everyone else in the room was.
I can't even think about the specific scenario im thinking of anymore, but it must exist because i found this in my drafts.
I think something im managing to do is be inadvertently self conscious in a bad way. I cant describe it but it feels almost selfish in retrospect.
It must be so boring to be normal but if im surounded by unusual people am i just normal?